Urges.

I have them a lot. Spontaneous wishes. Sometimes incredibly strong. A common theme is music.

Today's urge came on like gangbusters, and isn't a new one. While listening to Radioparadise, the totally masterful piece "Birdland by Weather Report came on.

I stopped playing in the band about a month ago, so I don't have my fill of (as close as we got) to organized music. But listening to the keyboard riffs, the bass runs, and the soft, subtle guitar lead in Birdland brought out that "I COULD DO THIS! I just... need... to stop doing everything else, and learn! Aaargggh!" feeling.

Now I want (slightly faded, but still percolating around) to drop everything, retire to a mountaintop somewhere with a guru, and immerse myself in understanding music theory and practice for a few years. Guitar and keyboards first, then apply that knowledge elsewhere. Unlearn all the bad habits I have on the flute, and relearn it, and maybe, just maybe, learn to play fiddle.

Not going to happen, I know. But the urges continue...