Things that suck.

[penk]

Well, good days, bad days, ickier days.

This week I was out of work at Intuit thursday and friday with a nasty head cold that really had me worn down. Normally I -like- being out sick, because at least I can watch TV, if I can't focus on work. I couldn't even focus on the TV. Nappage just was NOT happening either. Grump.

I managed to rally enough to prep for catya's Dance, which went off splendiferously, though mighty tiring.

This morning we went over to ghislaine and agaran's house for a joint birthday party for Steph and Sarah - that was a lot of fun, and we stayed til about 2. Cat ended up leaving for an afternoon engagement, so me, Zach, Sarah, Langdon, Dwight, and Alex ended up heading out to go BOWLING! Yes, that sport I've been saying I've wanted to do more of, and finally got an afternoon of. Zach had a blast, hurling that 7lb chunk of whatever it is with great abandon. I top-scored at 157, which is 'eh' for me, but makes me go "Okay, I remember this... I should do more."



Unfortunately, in the midst of the party, I got a phone call from the VC fellow we've been working with - I hastily threw on my coat and stepped outside, and had a nice 20 minute chat. The upshot is... he's not funding us. So, now I'm faced with no direct job prospect come Feb 1st, when I finish up with Intuit.

I'll have to start shaking other trees now, and possibly change out funding model if I really want to do this full time.

I'm pretty wiped about it. I'm taking my normal track for these thigns, which is to get really down on it, and start DOING SOMETHING! I basically have to focus on 'completeing' something, just so I get my own worth in, if that makes any sense. This time it's cleaning my room. I have a decent workspace up there, desk, computer, nice arrangement, but it's gotten totally piled under with clothing and -crud-. I'm going to finish converting that back to functional space, and get a workstaiton running there. Hopefully that'll be done early tomorrow morning, so I can do some fiddling and get soem code checked in tomorrow.

What happens after that? I have no idea. It's hard shopping for a job 7 weeks out, most contracting agencies don't work that way, and I feel that shopping a Real Job for that time is giving up on my own business.

I need someone to basically hire me to work on Stonekeep stuff for 2 months. I think that's all I'd need. Heck, $50k cash infusion into the business could keep me working for 4-5 months, with buildup, at which point I'm -sure- I'd have enough business to keep me going.

*sigh*

Comments

[mrf-arch.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I'm sorry to hear the VC didn't come through.

Ah crap!

[hawkegirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

AArrrgh

[sarahshevett.livejournal.com]

Well after the first part of your post I was going to say something about how crappy it is to not be able to enjoy a perfectly good day in bed with the T V because you feel so crappy...

Then I read your second half..

dang

So I can say something Hallmarkish like when one door closes, another blah blah
I do believe crappy things happen for a reason ( yeah I try to tell myself that to get through em anyway) .

Of course it will all be even better in the end, you'll see!

(before I sent this post I looked out the window and saw my F%$#&NG neighbors entire herd of scaggy inbred cows marching down the road into my field. Now I still have to figure out what the reason is that I have hillbilly drunk neighbors too old to care for their ranch and that I have to constantly deal with their mess in my slippers and bathrobe, and this,the first morning I have off in months...)

good luck!

[jasra]

*hugs* Sorry about the VC stuff.